I could say that I started to feel that I am in love when I saw Roberto"BJ"Ranin...even the 1st time I saw Him... I can't explain why but only the fact that it was a love at first sight...lolz! That was happened when I was in high school (talandi) lolz! And here the story goes....
I was standing outside the classroom talking with my BF (Kristone Getio.) Yes, you heard it right! I was committed that time. Committed in a sense that it was only needed... Anyway, as I was saying... We we're in the middle of a nonsense talk when my eyes spotted "BJ" standing also outside their classroom (we're in 2nd yr h.s then...) talking with his friends. That was the 1st time I saw Him... I can't help but ask Khristone "sino yung matangkad na yun? and luckily He answered me back...."Ah, yun? si BJ yun, bago lang yun dito... classmate q. Following the question "bakit mu tinatanong? Crush mu? And answered Him "hindi no! tanong lang, masama ba?....lolz! And that ends our conversation...
The next morning, I was excited to go to school because I was hoping that I might see Him again... And I was right! He passes by in front of me... From then on... I can't help myself but to look around hoping to see Him. I don't know, I felt that my day was not complete if I don't see Him at least before the day ends... Even if I'm with my bf that time, in my mind and in my heart it's Him who I'm asking to be with... It might sounds corny but it was true...lolz! When I and Khristone broke up, I've thought that this was the beginning for me and for BJ. It might sound selfishness but that's the fact!
Then we reached 3rd year h.s... I was really surprised when I found out that we we're going to be classmates...Oh! My God... Is this the sign? lolz! I thought everything will be easy for me to catch his attention... But I was wrong... I found out that He is aloof with the girls... He is also "SUPLADO". grrrr! That was a hard time for me because I think everybody in our classroom knew that I had a crush on Him (BJ) so, every time they made "tukso" I feel like an ice cream in a cone that melts. And when it's happening (i mean the "tuksuhan" factor), He always says this...."HWAG KAYONG MAGULO, PARANG KAPATID KO LANG YAN..." Ouch!!!But that wasn't ended up like that.... I continued to admire Him and to love Him secretly... Even if I know in myself that He's only treated me as His younger sister! huhu
And finally.... the last year in high school... That was a crucial stage for everybody... I'm talking about the academics, hehe! I've been busy that time so I wasn't able to know and to check his whereabouts until I heard this rumor that He is courting someone... At first I don't want to believe it coz knowing BJ, that girl is not his type and I am 100% sure about it...lolz! But I was shocked when one of our friends confirmed it to me... And says... " Nakita q si BJ and yung girl last night nagla2kad lang sila, mukhang ihhatid yata"... Then boom! All hopes are gone.... From then on, I started to be aloof to Him... Even if we crossed our way in the hallway I don't bother myself to look on him. Ok! fine! I'm bitter.... And I will not deny the fact that I was hurt! Really hurt…But what can I do, right? I fell in love to the person who just treated me as a younger sister!!!!! Then fine with me....!
It was 3rd quarter of the school year when BJ surprised me! In what sense? Well, that was weekend and I am busy watching my favorite program in channel 7(oh, dba! kapuso! hehe) when my cell phones beep...oooops! (1 message received)...and guess who....? It's HIM! kalerki talaga! That was Dec.23, 2001…. We had a long conversation that time until He proposed to me to be His girlfriend… Do I have to make “PAKIPOT PA BA?” Of course I said “yes!”
From that day, we became bf-gf…but only in title! I was thought that everything would be easy for us… for our relationship but it wasn’t easy. Actually that was the hard one compare to my past relationships… I was challenged that time. I swallowed all my pride just to please Him. I followed all his rules just to avoid arguments. I even stopped wearing shorts just because He doesn’t want me to…
January 24, 2002, after class… I was hoping then that He’s waiting for me outside the school campus. I thought He’ll send me home. I asked my friend to look for Him but my friend didn’t saw Him so, I decided to go home w/out knowing that He is also looking for me…
When I got home, I received a txt from Him…”Bakit hindi mu aq hinintay, hinahanap kita kanina. Akala ko sabay tayo uuwi.” and replied Him…“Hinanap kaya kita, wala ka naman kaya umuwi na lang aq.” Then He got mad… I texted Him several times but He never replied… I decided to send Him my final message…”Kapag di ka nag reply it means that we’re over.” But still no reply.Until 12 midnight, I was about to sleep when my cell phones beep…” sorry kanina, nainis lang aq kaseh akala q sabay tau uwi. Birthday q kaseh, gusto ko makasam ka. Di ko naman hayaan matapos yung gabi na to na hindi tau ok. And that’s it! We became a little ok…
Valentines Day… I prepared a valentine card for Him (actually it’s my friend, Nene, who prepared that letter. lolz!) Everything was there in the letter… all my hatred and my dilemma towards him and towards our relationship.… I came to a point that I told to myself that I had enough with this relationship but I’d realized that I can’t able to loose Him. So, I hold on! And finally He realized that He can’t able to loose me also... We talked and we both agreed that we’re going to start all over again….
